AFTER THE DEATH OF MY CHILD / ANNA WADE (MOM) PLEASE, DON'T ASK ME IF I'M OVER IT YET. I'LL NEVER BE OVER IT. PLEASE,DON'T TELL ME SHE'S IN A BETTER PLACE. SHE ISN'T HERE WITH ME. PLEASE, DON'T SAY AT LEAST SHE ISN'T SUFFERIN. I HAVE YET TO COME TO TERMS WITH WHY SHE HAD TO SUFFER AT ALL. PLEASE, DON'T TELL ME YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL-UNLESS YOU'VE LOST A CHILD YOURSELF. PLEASE, DON'T ASK ME IF I FEEL BETTER. BEREAVEMENT IS NOT A CONDITION THAT CLEARS UP. PLEASE, DON'T TELL ME AT LEAST YOU HAD HER FOR SO MANY YEARS. WHAT YEAR WOULD YOU CHOOSE FOR YOUR CHILD TO DIE? PLEASE, DON'T TELL ME THAT GOD NEVER GIVES US MORE THAN WE CAN BEAR. PLEASE, JUST SAY YOU ARE SORRY. PLEASE, JUST SAY YOU REMEMBER MY CHILD. PLEASE, JUST LET ME TALK ABOUT MY CHILD. PLEASE, MENTION MY CHILDS NAME. PLEASE, JUST LET ME CRY.
missing you / Brianna Ramirez (lil sister ) hey katherine heres a poem to you from me its called..this also explains how i felt that day u left me to now.......The Broken Chain
I little knew that God was going to call your name. In life I loved you dearly.in death,we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you Katherine. you did not go alone. For part of us went with you. the day God called you home. You left me beautiful memories. luckly of you and i. Your love is still my guide. And thoguh I cannot see you. You Are always at my side. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same with out you. But as God calls us one by one....the chain will link again and we will all be joined together as the same old famiy that we once were
katherine i miss you so much!. u seriously dont know.. nor does anyone else. even though they might say the know.but people are curious if i have ever gone a simple day not thinking one thought of u . and i have to tell them..."nope. everday there is a tought of my sister in my mind"...well i think of the fact that i didnt get to see me go to high school for the 1st time and how i wish that i were to be able to see you graduate.damn sis. i want you to call me in the middle of the night again just to see whats up... well big sister of mine now my guardian angel.. i love you oh so very much . im goin to go now. i love you keep watch ....damni dont want to say good bye........so......peace kat
MAY NOT BE OBVIOUS BUT....... / ANNA MOM WADE (MOM) IT MAY NOT BE OBVIOUS TO YOU, I PARTICIPATE IN FAMILY ACTIVITIES I ATTEND FAMILY GATHERINGS I HELP PLAN HOLIDAYS YOU TELL ME YOU'RE GLAD TO SEE THAT I DON'T CRY ANYMORE BUT I DO CRY! WHEN EVERYONE IS GONE- WHEN IT IS SAFE THE TEARS FALL I CRY IN PRIVACY SO MY FAMILY WON'T WORRY I CRY UNTIL I AM EXHAUSTED AND FALL ASLEEP
YOU TELL ME YOU ADMIRE MY STRENGTH & POSITIVE ATTITUDE BUT I AM NOT STRONG I FEEL I HAVE LOST CONTROL & PANIC WHEN I THINK ABOUT TOMORROW...NEXT WEEK...NEXT YEAR...
I GO ABOUT MY DAILY ROUTINE I COMPLETE ALL MY TASKS I DRINK MY SPRITE AND SMILE YOU TELL ME YOU'RE GLAD TO SEE I'M GETTING OVER THE DEATH OF MY DAUGHTER BUT I'M NOT "OVER IT" IF I EVER GET OVER IT, I WILL BE THE SAME AS BEFORE MY LOVED ONE DIED.... I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME!
AT TIMES I THINK I AM BEGINNING TO HEAL BUT THE PAIN OF LOSING A CHILD I LOVED SO MUCH HAS LEFT A PERMANENT SCAR ON MY HEART. I VISIT MY NEIGHBORS YOU TELL ME YOU'RE GLAD TO SEE I'M HOLDING UP SO WELL BUT I AM NOT HOLDING UP WELL SOMETIMES I WANT TO LOCK THE DOOR AND HIDE FROM THE WORLD
I SPEND MY TIME WITH MY FRIENDS I APPEAR CALM AND COLLECTED I SMILE WHEN APPROPRIATE YOU TELL ME IT'S GOOD TO SEE ME BACK TO MY "OLD SELF" BUT I WILL NEVER BE BACK TO ME"OLD SELF" DEATH & GRIEF HAVE TOUCHED MY LIFE
AND I AM FOREVER CHANGED!!!!!!
x-mas/ Meg Patt (sis) it's almost christmas day! i remember the first christmas right around the time we met u gave me beanie babies, when they were so popular....a long time ago, can u believe 5th grade. no matter what you were always my closest friend. i can't believe it's been about a year and half. My baby girl was born eight months ago, time flies with her being here, i jus wish you were here to see my baby girl. she looks jus like me, you would love her, probably almost as much as you did christopher. i love you and i really miss you. evryone does, but i know your looking down on all of us, laughing at the stupid things we do everyday and and wanting to comfort us during the tough times. Merry Christmas sis, i love you forever, you'll neva leave my heart.
IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN BY REBA MCENTIRE / ANNA WADE (MOM) IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN IT WAS THE LAST WALK IN THE RAIN I'D KEEP YOU OUT FOR HOURS IN THE STORM I WOULD HOLD YOUR HAND LIKE A LIFE LINE TO MY HEART UNDERNEATH THE THUNDER WOULD BE WARM IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN IT WAS OUR LAST WALK IN THE RAIN
IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN I'D NEVER HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN I'D MEMORIZE EACH THING YOU EVER SAID AND THOSE LONELY NIGHTS I COULD THINK OF THEM ONCE MORE KEEP YOUR WORDS ALIVE INSIDE MY HEAD IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN I'D NEVER HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN
YOU WERE THE TREASURE IN MY HAND YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS STOOD BESIDE ME SO UNAWARE I FOOLISHLY BELIEVED THAT YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE BUT THE THERE CAME A DAY AND I TURNED MY HEAD AND YOU WERE GONE
IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN IT WAS MY LAST NIGHT BY YOUR SIDE I'D PRAY A MIRACLE WOULD STOP THE DAWN AND WHEN YOU'D SMILE AT ME I WOULD LOOK INTO THOSE BLUE EYES AND MAKE SURE OU KNOW MY LOVE FOR YOU GOES ON AND ON IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN THE LOVE I WOULD'VE SHOWN IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN.
YOU WERE SO FULL OF LIFE, ALWAYS SMILING AND CAREFREE, LIFE LOVED YOU BEING A PART OF IT, AND I LOVED YOU BEING A PART OF ME. YOU COULD MAKE ANYONE LAUGH, IF THEY WERE HAVING A BAD DAY, NO MATTER HOW SAD I WAS , YOU COULD TAKE THE HURT AWAY. NOTHING COULD EVER STOP YOU, OR EVEN MAKE YOU FALL, YOU WERE READY TO TAKE ON THE WORLD, READY TO DO IT ALL. BUT GOD DECIDED HE NEEDED YOU, SO FROM THIS WORLD YOU LEFT, BUT YOU TOOK A PIECE OF ALL OF US, OUR HEARTS ARE WHAT YOU KEPT. OUR WORLD NOW SEEMS SO EMPTY, AND IT'S HARD NOT TO SEE YOUR CHEERFUL FACE, BUT PLEASE ALWAYS KNOW THIS, NO ONE COULD EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE, YOU WERE ONE OF A KIND. YOU LEFT WITHOUT A WARNING, NOT EVEN SAYING GOODBYE, AND I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP, ASKING THE QUESTION "WHY"? NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME, OUR HEARTS ARE EMPTY WITHOUT YOUR LAUGHTER, BUT WE KNOW YOU ARE IN HEAVEN, WATCHING OVER US. I DIN'T SEE THIS COMING, IT HIT ME BY SURPRISE, AND WHEN YOU LEFT THIS WORLD, A BIG PART OF ME DIED. YOUR SMILE COULD, BRIGHTEN ANYONES DAY, NO MATTER WHAT, THEY WERE GOING THROUGH, AND I KNOW EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, I'LL BE MISSING YOU.
A MILLION WORDS COULD NOT BRING YOU BACK I KNOW BECAUSE I'VE TRIED...... NEITHER WOULD A MILLION TEARS I KNOW BECAUSE I'VE CRIED.....
I THOUGHT THIS POEMSAID HOW ALOT OF US FEEL INSIDE ABOUT KAT.
I miss You very much / Ravy Vanny (ex-boyfriend but friends ) Hey kat wow its been so long since we talked and now its going to be even longer until we can talk well just to say I miss you alot and Im always thinking about that summer we spent with each other and all the things we would say i wish you were here so that we can laugh about it togehter well i really miss you love you i will never forget you your always with me
hey my loveing sis / Brianna Ramirez (sister) hey sis wats goin on?.. well i want you to know that i love you!!!!! and that i miss you sooo much ok.well guess wat ! im graduating middle skool on the 15th of this month.. i really hope that ur spirit will be there to support me! .. oh and guess wat im singin there too!! kool.. i have such a beautiful dress !!! well sis i miss you a hell of a lot! dont worry im takin care of mom, chris, graandma, papa. and eeveryone else ok! i love you sis love ur lil sis bri
together one day again / Meg Patt (sister) A true friendship lasts forever even in seperation In sad times, I know your watching over me Dreams come and dreams go sometimes your in them, sometimes your not But I know you always there in my heart Your own heart always filled with joy, continues to fill mine Those inescapable blue eyes that everyone seemed to fall into With pale skin and a red bow Freckles that brought out the child in you And the beautiful red hair that always seemed to change You'll never escape my mind or my soul, why would I want that? For when the day comes to meet again it will be as if we never parted. March 12th, 2006
you will always be my best friend / Meg Patt (sister) you have always been there for me ever since i can remember. we did so many things together good and bad, mostly bad...but it was always fun and it didn't stop us even when we got grounded. we've shared so many new things together, i could tell you anything and not worry about if i sounded stupid and pathetic. i can't believe i've lost the closest person to me, because now there's no one i can find to be there for me like you were, and to share so many things like we did. you were such a huge part of my life that there's no forgetting youand i want to because it hurts so bad not seeing you around. sometimes i think you'll still call me when you come down to visit from hesperia. or maybe you'd be living out here again with your mom or room-mates. we'd both be driving now and so we wouldn't have to if we wanted to go to the park at night so we could swing and talk about boys. how i miss those nights the most. just us two kickin' it at the playground. if i only could have hung out with you one last time, that tuesday night that you called me just before you went to heaven. it will feel like such a long time, but i know we'll be just as good of friends in heaven, probably even better. as you may know from looking down from heaven that i have a daughter now, she'll be 5 months on the 29th of this month. in a way i feel that she came to this earth because you left. like one person is born because one person dies. and i feel that's why she's here. you know her middle name is ann, i gave it to her in your memory. she's kinda got a red tint to her hair to, maybe she'll get red hair just like you! i love you so much. i have two green beaded necklaces in memory of you hanging from my rear view mirror. there's not a day that goes by that your not on my mind. i pray that you are being held in Go's hands all the time, sitting there talking to him and playing games with him. one day i'll be there with you, both of us kickin back making new memories.! my love is with you and your family forevermore.
gobble gobble eat till you wobble... / Brianna Ramirez (lil sister )
11-27-08
Hey Katherine,
well. i was thinking this morning. I SHOULD CALL KATHERINE AND WISH HER A HAPPY THANKSGIVING... but then i woke up and realized it was just a dream. i love you sis. and i really really wish that you were her today. you gotta be here to help me eat all this food! haha. Matthew is going to mom's house today and im going up there 2morrow. i hope mom and matt go see you today. im gonna go 2morrow. i hope that you and Sarah have a good thanksgiving up there. Oh and a radom thought popped in my head a minute ago....how tall you would be compared to me now...i have a feelin that lil ole me grew lol. well Katherine. keep watch over us. i love you i miss you..everyday.
May God give you peace / Bridget S.
I just happened upon this site. This is a really nice tribute to your loved one. My condolences. Your Family is in my prayers. May God give your family peace. R.I.P. Katherine Ramirez Close
May God give you peace / Bridget S.
I just happened upon this site. This is a really nice tribute to your loved one. My condolences. Your Family is in my prayers. May God give your family peace. R.I.P. Katherine Ramirez Close
so i have come to realize..that..Katherine... there are no longer anymore words that i can say to describe how much i miss you. you were one of the most important people in my life weather any one beileves it or not.
you know im usually ok but sad...until i look at your pictures..then it really really really hits me that
"oh snap my only sister is gone forever now..in just a blink of an eye"
i can sit here and tell you that i love and miss you...but in my heart i believe that i dont have to say and/or write or type it for you to know it. losing you is slowing killing me inside without me knowing it or being able to stop or comtrol it. people think its easier than it really is. Katherine, that day is forever indented in my head. not that i want it there or not that i want it to be gone. im at the point where....where i just dont know anymore..i really dont...but im keeping my head up and holding in the tears till i am alone in my room once again. and when that door shuts behind me...all the tears and sadness comes out. being strong up front just to make people think that i am ok...its really starting to get hard to do. i wanna just give up on everything...but i know that if u were here you wouldnt want that. so im holding in there just for you.
ok well i feel like i should say more. but my head cant bare anymore....Katherine...just please realize what im going threw and give me advice like you used to...
I miss you so much!!!! / Alicia Quintana (Cousin)Read >>
I miss you so much!!!! / Alicia Quintana (Cousin)
Katherine, I miss you so much. I'm just sitting here in my room, crying. I can't stand knowing that you're not here and it makes me want to scream because people can't see how I'm feeling. I miss you and I miss grandpa. I didn't know that death can take so much out of people, but now I know. Losing you took a very big part of me. Nevermind, it didn't take a part of me.. It took all of me. Everything's changing and I hate it. I really do. I wish you were here so you can make things better and I wish you were here to make people happy because without you and Grandpa the world is such a lonely place it seems like it doesn't even exist. Everday is another day I shed tears and I don't want to live like this. I don't want to live with pain and sorrow in my heart any longer. I need help and I need it now, I wish you were here so this wouldn't be happening to me because I can't stand it anymore. I want to scream and I want to cry forever and ever until the day I die to make up for how much pain I've had to deal with. Please just take my hand and take this pain away. I love you Katherine. You are my Guardian Angel. Please watch over me and everyone else. I miss you.